fifteen.

first off.. just know that i am dependent, i always have been. i depend on people for everything. i hate to be alone, i hate to do things alone, just the thought of it makes me anxious and i think about all of the awkward situations that could occur. i have tried to be better about this lately, but it's hard.

now know.. that i am going to try to sort of clean my life. i am going to get rid of every person who brings me down. i don't want to be surrounded by people who don't truely care about me anymore. i don't want to be around people who are going to doubt the best thing in my life. or try to convince me that something isn't right for me, when clearly it is. they obviously aren't looking out for me, rather, they are being selfish.

also, i don't want to be mean. i know i have said that multiple times, but im all gung-ho about it this time. i want to be better. i want to feel nicer. unless you give me reason to be, i won't be mean anymore. i won't make fun of people unless they 100% deserve it. i won't surround myself with people who feel the need to make others feel uncomfortable/unhappy to have a good time. i am sick of doing things/being in situations and knowing that it's not right and knowing that i hate doing it / being there. so from now one, i'll be the bigger man.. and just walk away.

i'm going to be a better person, i swear on it.
and i won't need people anymore, at least no more than the next guy does.
my life is going to be better, and if you want to take part in it and support me with it, then you are more than welcome to. however, if youre going to try to bring me down, walk away while you're ahead.

have a good one.