six.

I am going to apply at Uarts, for dance. and i am very excited about that.

this is a big step for me. and realizing this sort of put some things into perspective today. i am a wuss, and HUGE scaredy cat. so me taking the step to actually try and go somewhere, is a big deal. but the worst that could happen is, i dont make it or i do and i don't like it so i leave. i was going to write alot. but i dont want to anymore. i am just real happy that i am trying to do something, to better myself in a way.

my spirits have been down lately and i hate it. i am trying to be strong for the people who need me to be strong, and i think i am doing an okay job. but deep down i am falling apart. i am stressed. and i keep getting anxious about everything, and over analyzing anything that happens. my mind is everywhere all the time. i want to control my thoughts.. i feel crazy sometimes. but... i'm gonna get through this, and i am gonna be better... we both are.

have a good one.