"I dont like where i am. Literally & figuratively. I think i mostly mean, my state of mind or whatever. I want to isolate myself from people, but im too scared to be alone. Im jealous of too many people. & I hate feeling inferior. I wanted to go out tonight. I had things to do. Instead i got stuck at home being a dumbass. Im an unhappy little fuck. or something of that sort. i really really want to be able to make that list of things i like and be that pleased with things again. this is sooo stupid. and i feel even more stupid for giving in to it. I think i want someone to "love" or what have you... I want a relationship. & i want to not screw it up by backing away. Eh it wont happen, im sure... "
-so that is from late october, last year.
im in love.. with life. with a boy. with my friends.
i am so happy. and happiness is one of the best feelings. ..that and knowing that everything in life is going to be okay, no matter what life throws at you. ...everything's gonna be alright.
the only downside is how bummed, stressed, and frusterated i get sometimes. i really just want to better myself. it is going to happen. asap. i promise.
thankyou, to everyone who helps me through everything. i would be nowhere near where i am now... so much better off, if it wasn't for you. ♥.
2 comments:
You don't need this guy, whoever he is. He isn't right for you. You deserve better than him - you deserve to be with me.
yo fight that nigga
-zol
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