eleven.

it's not the best theory, but it'll have to get me by until i come up with a better one..

maybe we're this unhappy, so that we don't start to underappreciate the good that we have. maybe it's to help us notice who our true friends are, the ones who are there to help and really understand. maybe it's to make us work harder for a better life, and to actually feel better once we have it. maybe it's to help us see the basics and know that the little things are what count the most. maybe it'll just benefit us sooner or later.

i've been down lately. along with a few other good friends. it's the worst when the people you care most about feel horrible and there is nothing you can do about it. but, i do love that i can go out with those miserable friends, and somehow cheer ourselves up. no problems were solved, no one had an epiphany, we didn't even win the lottery.. it was just a simple time, with simple talks, that made us all feel a little bit better.
im realizing that there are good&bad in my life. i need to weed out the bad, it might be real hard to do, but i think it will make things better for me. i see that there are some people, who i am repeatidly stressed around in similar situations and that needs to change. i'm not sure what this means for me.. or where it will lead me. it's just some ideas i've had going through my head.
there's more, there's always more.. but we can leave that for another day.

have a good one.

-joie.