thirty-one.

well, i graduated and that rules. definitely didn't see that happening. hopefully i will be able to change my habits next year, with college, and not procrastinate so much.
summer is upon us and i am very happy. i'm all done with my first real job in a week, after 3 years of the same thing. i'm glad i didn't quit in the middle of the year as i would have liked to many of times. the end came soon enough, just like i kept telling myself. and now i won't be leaving on bad terms, and (god forbid) if i ever change my mind, they will most likely take me back. i realized alot about working there, however, over the last month. for instance, i started being treated much differently after a certain incident a little less than 2years ago that didn't pertain to anyone of the people who began treating me differently. i don't like that they were such nosey people who would bring themselves into other people's business and then allow that to effect the way that they were treating others. i don't know, it's what you get for working with all girls. ...so yeah, having no job and then a new job will be weird.
i'm always so nervous about everything. i think too much, and it always gets the best of me. and i bring people down. noone wants to be around me anymore and that's a crappy feeling. but basically, i guess it's all on me.... i have a headache, and it's not going away.

i need to use this again.